My confession begins at birth. I was born fatherless (a bastard) as they call it, and my mother and I had struggled very hard our whole lives. I was raised in a Christian environment, went to church on Sunday, attended Sunday school, and all that nonsense. Being in church was very uncomfortable for me and my mother, and people would stare and treat her horribly because she had no siblings. We were outcasts in church, receiving no help or support when we really needed it. School for me was hard. I had gone to a Christian school from kindergarten to grade 2, but my mother could no longer afford to send me, and the school would do nothing to help a single mother with a kid. Then I began going to a public school, but because I had strong Christian values, it was hard. I always argued with the teachers about their views on how creation happened, and in 5th grade, I knocked out my science teacher for saying we all came from gorillas. I was very loyal to 'God' and I prayed every night for guidance for my mother and I, and it wasn’t till 6th grade when I came upon a verse in the bible that really troubled me. The verse was, "And I will put enmity between thee and the woman, and between thy seed and her seed; it shall bruise thy head, and thou shalt bruise his heel" (Genesis 3:15). Therefore, there are the children of Eve and the children of Father Satan.
I began reading occult books and studied the black arts trying to find out who I am. Of course, I read LaVey’s so-called ‘Satanic Bible’ which absolutely disgusted me. I was 13 when I met Father Conrad of the Black Union of Pennsylvania, who was a Satanist in the traditional sense. I told him about how my mother and I were being treated, and how loyal I was to Christ but felt no appreciation from him. He spoke words that will stay with me till I am in the grave- "Satan is the father of the fallen, rejected, and the lonely… all who God abandoned." Since then, I have read ‘THE BLACK BOOK OF SATAN’ and other great satanic literature that had cleared my mind and made so much sense. I would spend hours with Conrad; learning the ways of the black arts- that Satanism isn’t a religion but the truth. There are the sons of Eve and the sons of the Serpent. After 2 years of finding myself, it was clear I was a reject bastard by God. I was sick of hearing Christians preach of their blessings, and they would help others who really needed no help at all. Christianity to me was a clique for rich pious snobs. It was then when I took the oath of the Union, and Satan became my Father. I did not become a Satanist by listening to metal. My life led me to Father Satan’s truth. By age 15, I was so full of strength, confidence, and wisdom, and life for my mother and I had gotten a lot better.
I owe my blood to my fallen Lord. What Satan has done for me is that he has rid me of fear, anxiety, and all the things that Christ did nothing to help me with. Satan is my God, my Master, and my Father. He comes first in my life over anything. If I had never turned my life over to the fallen lord, I would still be living my life in fear and confused turmoil, asking why isn’t this horrible Yahweh helping me. He is a horrible God of Lies, who Satan stood up to with great ideas, and the lying, who I call ‘daddy's boy Jesus,’ stepped in and destroyed Satan’s plans for his perfect world. I pledged war on 'god' since age 16, and my life and my soul belongs to SATAN.
OH SATAN, MY FATHER,
SHUT THE LIES OF THE JEALOUS GOD.
I LOOK FORWARD TO WHEN YOU ARE ENTHRONED ON THE THRONE OF THE UNIVERSE,
AND JEHOVAH AND JESUS ARE BANISHED IN HELL FOREVER.
MAY YOUR LEGIONS REIN OVER ALL.
HAIL ALL THE FALLEN ANGELS!
HAIL SATAN'S DEMONS!
HAIL THE NEPHILIM!
HAIL THE PRINCIPALITIES!
SHEOL WAITS FOR GOD. IT IS EXCITED FOR YOU!!!